It's been a hot minute

So the end of 2017 and all of 2018 didn’t go AT ALL like I expected it to. I didn't have many expectations to be honest, but no matter what they were, that wasn’t it! Life took me, involuntarily, on a rollercoaster ride. I don’t know how to describe this last year at all. It’s been a beautiful mess. I’m only starting to see the beauty now, before I’ve just seen the big mess and the pain. Now as the pain is ending, I recognise the pain as a good thing, but I wouldn’t re-live it if you paid me ten million euro.

I’ve renamed my blog to Stranded In Wexford. I didn’t use to be stranded here. I used to travel a lot and at least go to Norway and see my family, but I haven’t seen them in a year. A year!! And therefore I have accepted my fate and realised I’m actually stranded here. Currently with no travel plans or even a car or drivers license. Proper stranded, in the Irish country side.

My blog used to be called emilyeyra and you can read old posts about my travels. I love travelling and being a little stuck here is freaking me out, but I’m making the best of it. You can consider this blog a cry for help. Just kidding. It’s the complete opposite.

After what’s been the hardest year of my entire adult life I’m ready to start writing and blogging again. It’s been a hot minute. A lot has happened. I have struggled a lot, I’m not going to lie. I’m just starting to feel like myself again which is so nice. I mean, I’m starting to enjoy things I always used to enjoy again. I’ve come out on the other side, from the big mess. I’ve felt like an empty shell, but I’m starting to fill back up. I’m completely different. My whole world view has been shook and shifted and therefor my attitude has changed and I’m just different. Enjoying writing, music, my job and so on was something that I lost in the big, big mess. Finding joy in them again and seeing beauty is like seeing an old favourite and a very nurturing friend. It’s grounding and for so long I didn’t find joy in anything. Anything at all. Things I used to love and things that interested me felt and looked grey and uninteresting. To see myself come out on the other side and enjoying things again feels like a huge relief. I feel so much more at peace knowing I’m not empty anymore. I wasn’t sure if I’d ever feel like myself again. It felt like so long. Each day felt like forever and a year felt like a life time. I’m sure, by now you can guess that I’m referring to a depression. It’s hard not to turn cold, bitter and cynical, but I won’t. After having been pushed around a little by life I have a strong desire to speak my truth again. Find my voice and even be a little mean and push back.

Basically starting with this. I haven’t seen my loser parents in a year. I reached out and told them I was struggling and needed help, but they didn’t help. I needed them and I needed someone. They have both completed college and are fully educated yet somehow can’t afford to come and stay with me for free. Yep, calling you suckers out. I hope you read this.

I’d like to end this blog post with an excerpt from the book I’m currently reading.

in Greek the word for ‘the beautiful’ is to kalon. It’s related to the word kalein which includes the notion of ‘call’. When we experience beauty, we feel called. The Beautiful stirs passion and urgency in us and calls us forth from aloneness into the warmth and wonder of an eternal embrace. It unites us again with the neglected and forgotten grandeur of life. The call of beauty is not a cold call into the dark or the unknown; in some instinctive way we know that beauty is no stranger. We respond with joy to the call of beauty because in an instant it can awaken under the layers of the heart a forgotten brightness. Plato said: ‘Beauty was ours in all its brightness . . . Whole were we who celebrated that festival’ (Phaedrus)
— John O'Donohue, Divine Beauty: The Invisible Embrace

Oslo trip

Recently I had a very emotionally necessary and short trip back to Norway. There has been a lot of changes in my life recently and going back for a little bit seemed to be exactly what I needed! 

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I stayed for two nights with my dad and three nights with Jenny. Jenny always makes the prettiest breakfast tables so it had to be photographed, yet again. We spent the days hanging out  and going out in Oslo. We rewatched old episodes of New Girl and bitched about things needing bitching about and whatnot. It was awesome as it always is with my girl. 

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We went to a Christmas market in Oslo. It would have been so awesome if it had been snowing, but it didn't. Instead it was just slippery and insanely cold. That didn't stop us from having the best time obviously. In the end neither of us ended up buying anything or eating anything, but y'know, it was still fun and all!

Girls Trip

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Ok, this blogpost is so delayed. I was in Budapest in March, but as you can tell, I'm not the most active blogger anymore. I want to get back into it a bit more, but I have been so insanely busy creating my other business and working so this blog has taken a back seat. Photographing and fashion will never ever leave my field of interests, I've been following the Met gowns all day, but hey, I've needed to take a small break to make room for something else. 

When something grand happens I still like to write about it and post my photos from it and that's how this trip felt. Grand. It's the first time all of my girlfriends have come together for a trip! We are already planning our next trip so this will definitely be an annual thing. We went to Budapest together!! It never feels old, stale, forced or strange to be around these girls, no matter how many miles there are between us and how long it's been since we've seen each other. It always feels fun, exciting, safe, normal and fresh all at the same time. Budapest turned out to be an amazing city.  I had a blast and I so enjoyed seeing a new place! We had whole days planned of fun stuff and there was literally never a dull moment. I slept about 4 hours each night and never rested, we just kept on coming up with new stuff to do, I also enjoyed myself so much that I never felt tired, how amazing it that! I hope you've enjoyed all the pictures and we'll catch up more soon, promise :) 

Black and White Magic

  Hailing a cab in New York City 1956

Hailing a cab in New York City 1956

 New York woman

New York woman

 Manhattan 1957

Manhattan 1957

  5th Avenue and 53rd Street -With A View Of Saint Thomas' Church( 1915)

5th Avenue and 53rd Street -With A View Of Saint Thomas' Church( 1915)

  New York,1947. Photo: Saul Leiter    

New York,1947. Photo: Saul Leiter

 

  Times Square, Dusk.1948. Photo: Rudy Burckhardt

Times Square, Dusk.1948. Photo: Rudy Burckhardt

  Leonard Cohen During His Chelsea Hotel Period In The 1970s

Leonard Cohen During His Chelsea Hotel Period In The 1970s

  Scarf, 1948. Photo: Saul Leiter

Scarf, 1948. Photo: Saul Leiter

  Hollywood, 1957.

Hollywood, 1957.

  France, 1942. Photo: Brassaï

France, 1942. Photo: Brassaï

  Rue des Plantes, 1950. Photo: Todd Webb

Rue des Plantes, 1950. Photo: Todd Webb

  Marilyn Monroe, 1962. Photo: Lawrence Schiller

Marilyn Monroe, 1962. Photo: Lawrence Schiller

  212 East 14th St (between 2nd and 3rd ave), NYC, 1992. Photo: Ann Sanfedele

212 East 14th St (between 2nd and 3rd ave), NYC, 1992. Photo: Ann Sanfedele

  Hailing a cab in New York City 1956

Hailing a cab in New York City 1956

  JFK, New York City, 1963.

JFK, New York City, 1963.

  Luxembourg Gardens, Paris,1958. Photo: Lewis Morley

Luxembourg Gardens, Paris,1958. Photo: Lewis Morley

  Debbie Harry, NYC, 1978. Photo: STEPHANIE CHERNIKOWSKI

Debbie Harry, NYC, 1978. Photo: STEPHANIE CHERNIKOWSKI

  Times Square, New York, 1959. Photo: Bedrich Grunzweig

Times Square, New York, 1959. Photo: Bedrich Grunzweig

  Washington Square, NYC, 1945. Photo: Arthur Leipzig

Washington Square, NYC, 1945. Photo: Arthur Leipzig

  42nd Street NYC, 1982. Photo by: Steven Huszar

42nd Street NYC, 1982. Photo by: Steven Huszar

  Lenox Avenue and 116th Street. Harlem, NY. Early 1960s. Photo: Shawn Walker

Lenox Avenue and 116th Street. Harlem, NY. Early 1960s. Photo: Shawn Walker

  James Dean, New York City, 1955. photo by: Dennis Stock

James Dean, New York City, 1955. photo by: Dennis Stock

  Venice, 1976. Photo By: Anthony Friedkin

Venice, 1976. Photo By: Anthony Friedkin

Life on these pictures were perfect. The pictures are the absolute when it comes to perfection, why did anyone think we ever had to evolve from this? Why did anyone think they could ever make it better? Cameras have become technically better, clearer and whatnot, but no camera could take better pictures than these. Style have become more individual, daring and exciting, but no one looks better styled than people in these pictures. Buildings have become larger, more advanced and there are a lot more buildings now, but the cities doesn't look any better now than they did then. Movie stars have become thinner, smarter about what they say on camera and their teeth are whiter, but they were never more beautiful, mysterious and adored than they were then. Why did we ever think it could get better than this? 

I know I look at this time of the world with rose tainted glasses. We live in a fantastic time right now, but at the same time, what happened? I find these photos so captivating and beautiful. I want to be them and live them. Anyway, I hope you enjoy these pictures as much as I do

Staying Fit The Second Month Into The New Year

New Years Resolutions? Always. Never. Either. Both. Neither. 

I don't take them too seriously.. I haven't spoken about them on my blog yet this year. I usually come up with a few. This year I decided to do something different. I decided not to set a goal for the year considering a year is such a long time. I know for a fact that I didn't think much about my resolutions in August last year - or April for that matter. This year I set three goals, only, for the next three months. I wrote them down and check on them often, still. I'm excited to say I'm right on target! They include reading at least three books, save a certain amount of money and focus on my healthy eating and exercise. I know the exercise thing seems old, worn and not exciting anymore, but I still want to include it on the list. I always need to keep up with my healthy eating and exercise and one of the things that inspire me the most is cute exercise gear and wear. I got myself some new exercise outfits earlier in the year that I have loved and I decided that I wanted to share some cute outfits with you as well - in the spirit of continuing fitness goals in the second month of the year. I made a list of super cute Fabletics pieces that I found on their website. Serious outfit goals. 

Blue Shorts - Tights - Sports Bra - Grey Print Jacket - Grey Jacket - Peach Top - Black Jacket - Bottle 

I can swift through the Fabletics website all day, seriously. I love their stuff and will be ordering sooner rather than later. I also love going to their site, even only for fitspiration, because they personalise what you see on the page by asking you simple questions before you start looking. Questions like; what's your favourite way to get fit, what's your favourite colours and what's your size. They alway pick out the cutest outfits that suit my taste and needs. I'm also a big Kate Hudson fan and love seeing her model the clothes and love seeing her 'picks'. I follow Kate on Snapchat and see her open Fabletics packages all the time which makes me inspired and jealous.

Important updates

Happy new year! Most years I would have already made many lists of realizations, reflections, goals, dreams, accomplishments for the old year and the new. So far this year I have been so busy working and whatnot that I haven't done, or wanted to do, any of it. I've had such a great and peaceful Christmas and New Year celebration. My dad was here the entire time which was amazing. I'm completely hooked to Parks and Recreation. It's hilarious. I also started Westworld which is interesting. I'm watching it with Ken and he already has eight theories and possible outcomes for the show. He's probably correct, somehow, with all of them.

I feel like the fact that David Bowie, Leonard Cohen, Carrie Fisher, Alan Rickman and Harper Lee died in 2016 made me feel like I died a little as well. It was weird to see Love Actually knowing that Alan Rickman is actually dead. Carrie Fisher was the coolest woman ever and her dog is really cute. Harper Lee, Leonard Cohen and David Bowie all changed my life. Rest in peace.

I will try to do more outfit posts. I shop so much second hand lately, I love it so much. I love finding clothes that has already been owned and worn by someone and had a life.

Also, I became vegan recently. I love it. Have you noticed how vegans often take it their lifestyle choice extremely seriously? Vegan starter pack: an extremely judgemental attitude for anyone who doesn't eat and live like them, puts the word 'vegan' in their Instagram bio, preach about veganism any chance they get, hate in the comments on anything posted anywhere on the internet that isn't about veganism, use the hashtag #vegan and #veganbody any chance they get, a hunger to prove that vegans can do anything, defensiveness against anything non-vegan especially non-vegan comments of any kind, an unending lust to talk about them being vegan. Some even wear t-shirts that says 'vegan'. Long story short, I think vegans give veganism a bad rep. It's just a simple choice not to eat animals or animal products. I can't say I will never do any of those vegan things, but I will enjoy learning new recipes and enjoy not preaching unless asked. Other than that, I have to say it's pretty amazing, ha!

May you receive everything you need and wish for in 2017 <3